Quick update...

Another 1.5lb off this week (on Sat), which I was really pleased with. I have definitely turned a corner now I feel and I'm so happy to be back on track.

I don't expect such a good result this week - it's been a bit of a mare. Multiple eating out and trying to make the right choices but it's hard when you're a) as fussy as me and b) have such a shitty selection of healthy foods locally. I've also missed the gym a couple of times due to appointments (dentist etc).

On a more positive note, I had a breakthrough in the gym this week. I am still going to spin class but I find it so hard to keep standing up. I can only manage maybe 30 seconds max. I never found it comfortable - I'd either find it really painful in my thighs and couldn't push through, or it would hurt my calves or my ankles. I did stand up but just couldn't push through.

Well this week I had an absolutely shit day at work and felt miserable. I just wanted to come home and hibernate. I also felt really icky. Really nauseous and dizzy and just not 100%. I wasn't going to go. Right up til five minutes before I had to leave I wasn't going, but I did. Even when I got up there I thought "oh I could just go home before class starts" but I didn't - I went to class and ten minutes into it something unexpected happened - I felt amazing! I couldn't believe it. I had so much energy, all the sickness and dizziness just disappeared. I pedalled by little heart out! And then when it came to standing up, I did the whole time for two whole songs. I've never even been close to that before. I didn't manage the whole way through all of the standing up parts, but I stood up on all of them and I managed the whole time and the two longest parts.

One of the songs is super cheesy, I can't even remember the words but it's one of these 'reach for the top, keep going, don't give up' kinda dance numbers and I normally laugh (internally!) at it but I fully embraced the cheesiness this time! I reached for the top! I kept going! I didn't give up! I really couldn't believe I'd managed it, and I didn't even really struggle. It was hard but I didn't struggle or feel like sitting down, I just wanted to keep going. I had to hold back the tears, because (I've never said this before) I was so proud of myself. It was such a great moment and I'd say one of the key experiences I've had so far on my weight loss journey. Now I just need to keep it up!

<3

Droppin' the pounds, droppin' the points

It's been a while since I've blogged. I keep sitting down to do it, but can't find the words. I don't feel anything positive or negative in particular, I think it's more just laziness (one of my worst traits!) and whenever I sit with the purpose of blogging nothing comes out.

Anyhoo, the last two weeks I am super pleased to say I have been back on track big time! I started back on the Discover plan (or "vintage points" as they now seem to be called, which I love) and I'm having far more success. I didn't go to weigh in the week before last, we had snow again and I didn't make it so I weighed myself in the house and I lost 2lbs (my scales were weighing me 0.5lb heavier than the WW scales last time I did this)! I was so pleased, and gutted I couldn't get to weigh in to get that little mark on my card! What was even better was that it brought me back down to 0.5lb to get my next Silver 7 - my 3 stone off mark. I feel like I've been waiting for this forever, but pretty much that I am to blame for it. Propoints didn't agree with me but I should've faced up to that much earlier. But, no time to dwell on what should've happened.

Last week, I pointed and tracked again all week, but I was terrified when I went to weigh in I wouldn't have lost the 0.5lb I needed to get to my mini goal (a mini goal I set back in October and only had 7.5lb to lose to get to). I'd done everything right but I was just so scared I'd get on those scales and it wouldn't happen for me. So I had a sneaky peek. I've never done this before and I won't again - my scales weighed me in at 11st 4lbs. That was a 3lb drop from the week before. I knew I hadn't lost that much so I didn't feel reassured at all!

I went along to WW (after briefly toying with the (silly) idea of not going in case I "failed"!) and stepped on the scales, practically sweating (TMI, sorry!) with fear and anticipation...and I dropped 1lb! I was SO happy! Takes me down to 11st 6lb and I got my super shiny little Silver 7! I could've leaped with joy!

So once again, it just goes to show TRACKING WORKS! There's no way to avoid it, when you start sneaking those little titbits in that's when it gets out of control. And I'm pleased to say, I am back in control :) The downside is dropping a point, but hey, it's worth it!

One thing I will say is for all the time I was on my self imposed plateau I maybe didn't lose any weight, but I did lose inches. I'm now a proper size 16. I can go into a shop and pick up a 16 and it'll fit. I put this down to keeping up with my exercise even when not on plan with WW. I made a point of always going and the last couple of weeks I've upped my classes to five a week.

I'm also now able to start dressing the way I want to dress (blog post coming up on this) and I've recently treated myself to the little goodies below! (If only I had this gal's figure!)





from Dorothy Perkins

I am hopeful that this is me now over the plateau and back on track for good. I have 2 stone to lose now (28lbs) to get to the highest "healthy weight" on the WW scale so I am aiming for that as my goal weight, and I will see how I feel when I get there. Because I am pretty short, I think I might feel like I want to lose a bit more.

My next mini goal is to get to 11st exactly, then I'm going to try running - one of my aims for the year. I still feel like I am too heavy just now and I've been having slight issues with my knee at the gym (even doing low impact stuff) so I need to keep an eye on it.

Oh, and after I said I hated spinning, I still don't love it but I am still going and I'm coming round to it...I did it twice last week!

I suck at blogging!

About as much as I suck at Weight Watchers just now!

I am DEFINITELY, DEFINITELY back on track this week though - I need to get a grip on this!

I'm still coasting away - one week I didn't weigh in, then I put on 0.5lb, then STS, then another 0.5lb (which is amazing considering I ate out 3 times this week and ate a full Dominos pizza (I couldn't manage that before I was on WW, but demolished one last night) as well as a starter from them. Gulp!). But I am going to get a handle on it this week. I am!

I plan to sit tonight and plan out my whole menu for the week and track ahead. Actually write it out so I know where my points are maxed and I know where I have wiggle room (I'm doing VP for a few weeks before giving PP another go). I also want to try and eat better (more fruit and veg) and eat cleverer (eat leftovers, as little as possible going in the bin).

I also want to get back into regular blogging so that when I am having a shit day I have an outlet rather than stuffing some Cadbury's down my neck to make it feel better, so I can identify any other triggers I have to either overeating or making bad food choices (I've already identified being pissed off and being bored and two huge triggers for me) and I also want to finally get my Inspiration #2 post up.

I have to say I have had a NSV this week. I've finally dropped another dress size (despite not having lost any real weight since October - I put this down to hitting the gym hard!) and I'm now a UK size 16 - so chuffed!

Have a good week everyone (and me!) xo